Some of thought patterns you have when dealing with GAD can wear you out as your mind is often playing tricks with you.. There is a sense of dread, the feeling that something is going to go wrong, the feeling that you can get fired from your job for any mistake, That are doing you say the wrong thing to the wrong person.
You have a fear that everyone is watching you when few people are actually paying attention. You are afraid of meeting new people because you automatically assume they won’t like you.. You get uncomfortable in crowds and that you want to blend into the background. To sum it up you always fear the proverbial hammer going to fall on you.
It makes things such as social interaction, doing day to day stuff or even going in public very difficult.Aloo reading and watching the news can really send you over the edge as most off their stories are of doom or gloom.
Next time, II will bring up some ways how to cope and mention i am not a healthcare professional but just relating my own experience with this condition.
Sunday, February 23, 2020
Saturday, February 22, 2020
Thoughts From The Past
In living with GAD has been a challenge. In my youth I always wondered why I felt nervous in social situations and why I would worry all the time. I never seemed to fit in at school as having anxiety can be seen on your face and made me a target.
In fairness this was not known back then and it was brushed off as growing pains or being a little too sensitive. Even as time went on having anxiety was seen as being very weak if diagnosed.Also, parents were either unaware of this or unwilling to accept a child as having a condition such as this. Having a mental illness had a different sigma that you were crazy or you had a defect of some sort.
Mental health was not seen as gray as it is now.
I was seen as socially awkward and very quiet which were parts of my personally, I thought it may be something I grew out of. I wasn’t as bad as other cases as never had full blown panic attacks or had to be hospitalized. But it did(and still does) paralyze me in life especially socially.I also had huge fears of being physically hurt or was withdrawn which made me a target of bullies. This would only make things even worse and seemed to put me in a never ending vicious cycle.
I still had a relatively normal childhood but I had to always carry this monkey on my back.It ejected me socially, my performance at school and was partly the reason got involved in many sports and activities in school as well. I went childhood never knowing what was completely wrong.
In fairness this was not known back then and it was brushed off as growing pains or being a little too sensitive. Even as time went on having anxiety was seen as being very weak if diagnosed.Also, parents were either unaware of this or unwilling to accept a child as having a condition such as this. Having a mental illness had a different sigma that you were crazy or you had a defect of some sort.
Mental health was not seen as gray as it is now.
I was seen as socially awkward and very quiet which were parts of my personally, I thought it may be something I grew out of. I wasn’t as bad as other cases as never had full blown panic attacks or had to be hospitalized. But it did(and still does) paralyze me in life especially socially.I also had huge fears of being physically hurt or was withdrawn which made me a target of bullies. This would only make things even worse and seemed to put me in a never ending vicious cycle.
I still had a relatively normal childhood but I had to always carry this monkey on my back.It ejected me socially, my performance at school and was partly the reason got involved in many sports and activities in school as well. I went childhood never knowing what was completely wrong.
Tuesday, February 18, 2020
INTRO
Hi. This is just a little blog I have written to describe my battle with GAD (generalized anxiety disorder) which I was diagnosed with several years. I have learned this is not easy to shake and can reek havoc of your life. I have sought treatment and am on meds for it. I hope this journey will help me and also get to know myself better.
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