I have been experiencing these two things as I continue to struggle with anxiety and depression. I feel that as of late that I am getting nowhere in life and that this GAD is a huge stumbling block.
I feel stuck at my current job as I have not advanced in the time I have been there and I struggled with anxiety since I have started there. I also not found any leads to help me out of this situation and am told constantly told I am there for a purpose. I have also hurt my shoulder and wrists and am in pain a lot of the time. I feel it is hopeless and there is no end in sight.
I also have been looking back at some of the disappointments in my life such as failure to get into seminary, missed work opportunities etc... I feel this problem of anxiety has cost me a lot of opportunities in life and I am trapped in a vicious cycle as I am at times fearful to move on especially with COVID-19 right now. I just wish I could shake this thing but know it is not as easy as that.
Not all is lost as I am in great marriage, I have roof over my head and money is ok right now. I know I should stress the positive but these negative thoughts and feelings have crept in. I am just wondering if this could be the return of the black dog. As I have learned that anxiety and depression can really dim your outlook on life.
I should I have had problems in past at this place particularly with my bed-Foreman and an ex-co-worker. Things have been going well lately as I have charged crews but the memories are still there. I need forgive and forget so I can move on. Also, not to give up my job search and maybe find a way to acquire some new skills. A more positive outlook sure would help.
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